There isnt a need for anyone to see this.
So ,

I got so much to say, but when comes to here. i suddenly
dont know what to type.
i found that, you've changed. really, too much.
where is the guy that always loved me so much ever, caring me so much, and
everytime think of me gone to? who kidnapped you. i would pay my life to get you
back. seriously. it's like, everytime seeing you like this, i heart tore half.
controlled my tears. i couldnt take that kind of pain.. im too weak. i need
someone like you. but, where are you my dear.. i don't wish you to be gone, and
forever
i want you to stay by me, you got me ? hais, but i think its too
late now, to be like how we were. we are quarreling almost everyday, everyweek.
what has happened. did anything came between us? or did your feelings changed.
it's not that i dont trust you. it's just that, i find myself too stupid, to
think of all this. you might think i'm smiling on the outside, but not the
inside. my inside is already rotten like dont know what bloody cock up shit.
rotten, tore, broke.
without you, im like rotten shit. where are you now?..
the old baby. i baby that really dotes on me alot. i know it on the moment when
even your facebook photo changed. doesnt this shows that, you dont love me as
before? taking both of us off and leaving you there. hopefully, im wrong. please
tell me im wrong. ;( maybe i'm just thinking effing much, and i this also want
control, that also want control. too kaypoh already. it's killing this
relationship. oh fuck. my tears just cant stop dropping. how? you're not here.
you're playing basketball. and yes, i need my space. to think through things. to
cry out without you. i still have eeyore. thanks, for having eeyore. eeyore
became like a human to me, am i crazy? no i'm not. i'm always crying to eeyore.
without eeyore, i dont know what will happen when i cry. gah, exagerating? -.-
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i know you dont like me talking about yesung, but i admit it, sometimes im
really wrong
going too over. but no, im only taking him as my idol. you
think what, you think i like him ah, or love him, want mary him ? -.-
and
yes, i still gets jealous when you talked about your ex. who won't? sometimes
even when i talked about kokwee, or kamho, you are too right, who doesnt.
sometimes, i really hate myself. when you dont tell me, i know you feel guilty.
when you tell me, i felt sad. what could you do. no way seems the right way for
me. i'm too sensitive. oh well. nothing is going right now.
i just want to
say, my heart very pain. seeing the relationship crashing like this. i want the
old you and old me to be back. right now. hais, but it seems impossible.
do
my own stuffs? byebye? byebye then . FORGET IT. I'M GETTING SICK OF THIS.
just hope that, nothings ends just here. i need you, and i love you,
baby.